the days run away

02 July 2009 @ 09:24 am

I could spend months talking about this trip, but instead of boring everyone with every single detail, I'll just say that Egypt is the most beautiful country in the world. Every day I found myself overwhelmed by the amazing things I saw and the incredible people I met. At first I thought that I could die happy after this, but I know I won't be happy until I spend more time there. I seriously cannot wait to go back. Soon, soon, soon.

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30 June 2009 @ 07:20 am

need to take a big step back

It's one of those times when I feel like I need to have a long, long, LONG talk with my mom. I don't know if it will be the same over the phone, though.

talking in circles

02 June 2009 @ 09:14 am

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In two weeks I will be in Egypt. But before I get there, I have to finish all of my papers and finals (and get rid of this Incomplete from last quarter). Let's see if I can do this. Deep breath.

This weekend was fantastic, but I wish I'd had more time. Santa Cruz is great, but it's missing a lot of my favorite people. I hope next time I'll get to see more of you.

nolite te bastardes carborundorum

listening: mischief brew - nomad's revolt

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07 March 2009 @ 10:07 pm

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SHIT I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO:

- APRIL 3 -
DEFIANCE, OHIO at Zami! (down the street!)
RATATAT at Catalyst (2 blocks away!)

- APRIL 17 -
KIMYA DAWSON at Zami!

- MAY 14 -
AVETT BROTHERS at the Rio Theater (15 minute walk!)

The best part is that I can walk to all of these shows. Sorry guys, I mostly made this post to remind myself to buy tickets.

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22 February 2009 @ 11:14 pm

nobody but you

nobody can save you but
yourself.
you will be put again and again
into nearly impossible
situations.
they will attempt again and again
through subterfuge, guise and
force
to make you submit, quit and/or die quietly
inside.

nobody can save you but
yourself.
and it will be easy enough to fail
so very easily
but don't, don't, don't.
just watch them.
listen to them.
do you want to be like that?
a faceless, mindless, heartless
being?
do you want to experience
death before death?

nobody can save you but
yourself
and you're worth saving.
it's a war not easily won
but if anything is worth winning then
this is it.

think about it.
think about saving your self.

your spiritual self.
your gut self.
your singing magical self and
your beautiful self.
save it.
don't join the dead-in-spirit.

maintain your self
with humor and grace
and finally
if necessary
wager your life as you struggle,
damn the odds, damn
the price.

only you can save your
self.

do it! do it!

then you'll know exactly what
I am talking about.

Mr. Chinaski, it's been too long. I've missed you.

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30 January 2009 @ 11:23 pm

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okay so i know the last post i made about my boss was complaining about her but really, despite her kind of absent mindedness owing me a bit of money she's a great boss. she always wants to get us drunk after a really long and great night. i am drunk. woo mimosas at 11:00 at night! nyagggghhh

talking in circles

28 January 2009 @ 10:20 am

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hooooooly crap i'm going to egypt

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19 January 2009 @ 05:36 pm

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despite not working enough and spending too much and worrying about money and school and missing everyone back home, i'm so incredibly happy with my life right now. i love living here and i love living with jorge (and snurt). i'm not in love with my messy apartment but i'm working on it.

listening: The Avett Brothers - Pretty Girl From San Diego

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16 December 2008 @ 10:27 pm

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So I got an A in the class I was expecting a C in (due to my lack of "class participation"). HOORAH!

But the class I never worried about, the lower division class, the one that was a definite A? Ended up with a B+. I feel like a total whiny douchebag, but I e-mailed my TA to ask what happened. I got an enthusiastic A on my first paper from the professor, A on the midterm, B+ on my quizzes/final (like an 88), so unless I got a B- or something lower on my 2nd paper, I'm pretty sure I should be getting an A. Right? Ugh.

Also I'm pretty sure I earned an A in my 3rd class, but I took it pass/no pass so it doesn't count. All that effort for nothing. Ooooh well, no more pass/no pass bullshit for me.

Things at work are going much much better, my boss thinks I'm great because I can enter checks and print pictures. My coworkers are all really nice but for some reason I'm just really uncomfortable and awkward around everyone.

But I guess that's not just a work problem. It's like there's something in the air here that makes me even more socially retarded than I normally am. Like socially retarded to the point that I can barely form complete sentences in front of people. Bleh.

Erik and I are driving down tomorrow!!

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12 December 2008 @ 10:08 pm

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I'm coming home! Next Thursday til Christmas Eve Eve!

Let's hug a lot and dance and bake and get drunk and play settlers and get drunk and ice skate and hang out downtown and get drunk?

IDK! I'm drunk. Chocolate stout suxxxx.

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15 November 2008 @ 01:36 pm

"What do we want?" "WEDDING CAKE!" When do we want it?" "NOW!!!"

I love Santa Cruz.

♥ There were/are hundreds people taking part in this. I saw a lot of people I recognized from my classes and it's great seeing everyone so passionate and involved.

But I kind of wish I could have been in Riverside for this, I'm still feeling a little out of place here. I hope people were just as enthusiastic down there.

Now back to my paper.

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14 November 2008 @ 09:14 am

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"Reading Egyptian Hieroglyphs"
omg omg omg how exciting

If this "literature" class can't somehow be counted toward my history/archaeology majors I'm going to punch someone in the dick. The history classes offered for winter quarter are so disappointing... :(

I'll also use this post to whine about how about how much I hate the quarter system...
GODDAMN I HATE THE QUARTER SYSTEM!
I'm used to having twice as much time in my classes. I just had my "mid"term and now the quarter is basically over and I'm having to worry about my final papers. What the hell, there is going to be no time to stop and breathe for the next 3-4 weeks.

Also I cannot believe that the one class I decided to take pass/fail is the one class I'm getting an 'A' in right now. Ridiculous.

-EDIT- Christ I've been whiny lately. Apologies.

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04 November 2008 @ 08:21 pm

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OH MY GOD YOU GUYS
YOU GUYS
OH MY GOD

why am i not drunk yet

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27 October 2008 @ 12:31 am

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i have four complete halloween costumes in my closet, but i feel like making a new one before friday.
i don't have any plans for that night, and i work until 11pm, so it'd probably just be a waste, but still.

halloween is my favorite holiday, iiii'm really going to be bummed if it sucks this year

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21 October 2008 @ 03:48 pm

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dear neighbor,

i admire you deciding to run for president less than 3 weeks away from election day, but i'm probably not going to vote for someone who can't spell 'campaign' right. even if you do have a 95% approval rating.

just sayin'

listening: environmental youth crunch - work-rest-play-die

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19 October 2008 @ 10:58 pm

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i honestly don't know if i've ever been so completely drained
i'm physically and mentally exhausted

this paper should be easy, i should have been able to finish this in two hours, tops
but i'm just staring at the screen and i can't even process these readings and what the hell

i think i need to quit my job if i'm going to be able to keep my sanity and get shit done for school

this was pointless, goodnight

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09 October 2008 @ 11:53 pm

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oh noes, i just realized i have no one to see twilight with up here
;_________________________________;

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26 September 2008 @ 05:55 pm

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Holy shit Santa Cruz is the greatest city ever. EVERRRRR.

But why do so many people walk around talking to themselves? Yesterday this funny old man walking behind me ran up when I looked back. "I PROMISE I'M NOT CRAZY! PEOPLE ALWAYS THINK I'M CRAZY BECAUSE I TALK TO MYSELF BUT I PROMISE I'M NOT!"

Every time I'm on campus it feels like I'm at camp. I love the smell of the trees and kicked up dirt. But those hills are going to kill me.

DEBAAAATE

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28 August 2008 @ 02:01 am

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i've always hated that i'm able to (or used to) completely confide in almost total strangers, people i only know online
yet i hardly ever discuss anything on my mind, their mind or anything really important at all with my closest friends
and for the past few months i don't think i've made myself available for anyone to come to me with anything
i'm trying to think of all the nights i stayed at home instead of going out, or ignored IMs or phone calls "just because"
and now i'm upset that no one bothers to call anymore

sorry that i've been such a half-ass friend for so many years

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05 August 2008 @ 03:31 pm

leaving

lately i've been more sad than excited

only 3 more weeks, so much to do before then
hardly any time to be with my family and friends

i hope this feeling doesn't last

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